jamesandthegiantpeach21

Yay, I'm being a good kid and getting my homework done! :D Now the chapter you're about to read looks totally different written out in my notebook, but that's because some people were like I wanna know how the Maddy and Jack hooking up thing occured, so I thought it'd be best if i explained haha. Warning: You may cry...a lot. Enjoy :)

"I don't wanna deal with this right now Maddy," I walked towards the door, but she blocked it off with her body.

"We can either talk about it privately in here, or down there in front of Rachel, Max, and everyone else,"

I backed off and stood there with my hands in my jacket pockets.

"You wanna talk, then talk," Anger rising up inside of me.

"We had something special Jack, there's no denying that,"

"We didn't have anything Maddy, we had drunken sex once and that was it."

*Flashback*

"God Jack, will you just drop it already!" Vanessa screamed at me.

"Jesus Vanessa, we've been dating for a while now. I wanna have sex," I practically pleaded.

"Go fuck yourself Jack, because you're not getting any from me, not anytime soon anyways,"

"Fine, whatever Vanessa."

I slammed the door to her bedroom and left her house, looks like I was gonna have to go too the party alone. The party was gonna start in 20 minutes and it took 30 to get to the house anyways. I drove a little faster than I should've, but hey I was pissed I wasn't getting any. I pulled up to the house and kids were already outside wandering around, drinks in hand. I made my way into the house and found Rian and Kara talking in the corner.

"Sup guys?" I said, giving Rian a high five.

"Not much man, just hanging. Where's Vanessa?" He said, a little confused.

"Umm we had kind of a fight, we just need a bit of time to get over it. Nothing major to worry about,"

"Good, because Vanessa's seriously the best thing to like ever happen to you man, I'd have to kill you if you did something to lose her."

I just laughed it off and went to drown my sorrows in something strong. That's when I saw her, drink in hand; I had to stop this. I marched up to her and grabbed her arm, ripping her away from whatever scummy one-night stander she was talking to.

"Maddy, what're you doing here?"

"Jesus Jack, what's your problem?" She said, irritated at the fact that i just twat swatted her.

"He's my problem. Look, since Vanessa isn't here I'm basically in charge of watching you and making sure you don't do anything you'll regret later,"

"Where is my goody two shoes of a sister anyways?"

"Home, we got in a fight,"

"Oh really? What about?"

"It's none of your business Maddy,"

"Lemme guess, she's not putting out and that makes you unhappy,"

I just stood there, getting more tense by the second. Maddy got close to my ear and whispered.

"She may not, but I do."

With that she walked away from me, to do God knows what. For some reason I was a bit shaky, I went and got myself another big, strong drink. This one almost knocked me on my ass, I had no idea what was in it, but I was definitely starting to feel it. I went and sat down on the couch to make sure if I passed out I wouldn't look like a damn fool. As I sat there and enjoyed the music I saw Maddy approach me.

"Well, well, well, what's going on over here?" She said, sitting next to me.

"I'm feeling sad, I don't like fighting with Vanessa, I love her, I need to tell her right now," I attempted to stand up, but Maddy shoved me back down on the couch.

"Jack, you're really drunk. Maybe you should wait until tomorrow and I'll take you upstairs so you can sleep it off,"

"Okay."

Maddy picked me up and slung my arm over her shoulder. She took me upstairs and shoved me in the first empty room she could find. We ended up falling onto the floor, and she had some trouble picking me up, yet somehow she managed to get me onto the bed. She began to take off my clothes.

"Maddy, what the fuck are you doing?" I said, attempting to shove her off of me, failing completely.

"Shhh, just go with it," She pressed her lips to mine and amazingly I didn't push her away.

She took off my clothes and I helped her take off hers, everything goes a bit fuzzy after that until morning, everything was somewhat clear that day.

I woke up trying to remember what happened last night. I remember Vanessa and I fought, I drank a lot at the party and...and...I looked next to me only to see a sounldy sleeping, naked Maddy. Oh dear God, what have I done?

*End flashback*

"Jack, Jack! What the fuck, are you even listening to me?" I snapped back to reality.

"Huh?" I managed to sputter out.

"I was saying, you don't remember what happened after Vanessa's funeral do you?"

"I don't wanna talk about that Maddy, you know how torn up I was after Vanessa died, I obviously was making deranged decisions,"

"Fuck you Jack, and deranged decisions my ass. We had something special and you know it,"

"I went through a very dark period, you looked enough like Vanessa I thought sleeping with you would be like sleeping with her one last time,"

"You're lying, I know you are,"

"I'm not lying Maddy, Vanessa was the love of my life and it's tragic that she died, but you can't seriously think that after watching her die I slept with you because I loved you instead of her,"

Maddy stood there for a minute, letting a few silent tears fall. I felt bad so I went over and held her while she cried.

"It's not fair, she had such a great life ahead of her, why the fuck did God take her away from us?" She spoke through heavy tears.

"I ask myself that everyday,"

"Maddy backed out of my arms and wiped her tears.

"So I was talking to my mom while you guys were seeing Max, and she wants to know if you want custody of Max,"

"That offer's still on the table?"

"It's what Vanessa would have wanted in the first place,"

"I don't think I could see myself living without him now to be honest,"

"Okay, I'll tell her. She's had the papers for you ever since we moved here,"

"Okay,"

We stood there in an awkward silence for a few minutes before Maddy broke that.

"Do you wanna see Vanessa's room?"

"Huh? You guys lived in Maryland when Vanessa..."

"Mom went through a HUGE denial phase for a while after she passed away so she made her room exactly how it was in Maryland in case she were to ever "come home". Obviously she got over that, but she finds it comforting to go in there every once in a while, we all feel that way, almost like she's not really gone. I sometimes feel her presense when I'm in there, might be good for you,"

"Wow," It was all I could say, I never thought I'd have the opportunity to be in that room again.

"If you wanna take a look it's the last door on your left,"

"Just like in the old house,"

"Yup, well I'm gonna go tell my mom."

Maddy left the room, leaving me to make my decision. I walked out of Maddy's room and down the hall, when I found myself in front of "Vanessa's room" I couldn't bring myself to open the door.

"Open it, it'll give you a chance to feel her presence one last time," I heard a little voice say.

"Don't go in, it'll be like re-opening a wound." Another voice said.

I went with what my heart was telling me, so I opened the door and found myself in the middle of what seemed like a long lost memory; the last time I was in here Max was concieved, also the first time we ever had sex; that's a night I'll never forget. I remember everything; how she looked, how she smelled, everything. I looked around seeing the navy blue walls, covered in photos of her and I. Everything was arranged the same way; bed was messy, clothes strewn out over the floor. It looked the exact same, but the scent was missing; Vanessa had a very peculiar scent to her, always smelling of fresh apples and coolw inter air. I noticed a medium sized vase sitting on top of her dresser, it had a silver plaquered on it, I knelt down in front of it to see what was engraved on it.

"Vanessa Rose Baker.

Beloved mother, daughter, sister, friend, and fiance."

I found myself not able to hold back the tears, I felt a rush of cool air go over my body. I looked to the window and noticed it was open, I walked over to it and shut it. I walked back over to the urn and got eye level with it.

"Okay, this is a little weird, but I'm gonna try it anyways," I whispered to myself, "Umm hi sweetie, it's me, Jack. I met our son, I wish you could see him, he has your beautiful eyes. God took you away from us too soon, but you should've told me about your condition, and how dangerous it was for you to have a baby. I'm bringing Max home with me, it's not gonna be the same raising him without you though. If you could just give me some sort of sign that you can hear me, and that you're watching over us, I'd really like that."

I sat there waiting for something, but nothing happened. I stood up, ready to walk out of the room when another slight breeze came over me. I looked back to the window again, and it was closed. I took a deep breath, smelling fresh apples and cool winter air. As I took in breath after breath, remembering the unforgettable and irreplacable times we shared together, I felt tears stream down my cheek.

"Thank you." I whispered.

I fell to my knees, resting my head in my hands, and broke down. Though I felt the comfort of knowing Vanessa was watching over Max and I, I couldn't help but feel like maybe I really had re-opened an ever painful wound.

Tear jerker for sure :'( If this doesn't make you cry than I swear you're heartless lol, just kidding, but it really is quite sad.

Buzzit;Loveit :)

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